REDEBONY'S BOOK BOUTIQUE

"we are only people," the warrior said to god, My mouth was a weapon my heart was a sword And when i crumbled and fell from grace; I couldnt recognize The eyes on my face Those eyes like slits with blinds that drew and all the pain My mind it knew Like a car it breaks I needed oil A plant that's barren Without soil And all those scattered marbles Whisper, whisper, says the owl says the educator With a righteous scowl Says a king Upon his throne and all the questions that thrive and moan How do i fix myself, The warrior said to god Said to angel With the excalibur sword, Said to the sergeant and the Millitia men Your present is now Your past was back then "There is no shame in the mistakes we make Sometimes in life we need a break To sew the threads of battered hearts, and rub the wounds of clustered scars The warrior crumbled upon the ground He sobbed aloud and it echoed sound For pain it carries Stretched like a

Loyalty, Should be the rhythmn of the black race We should replace and eradicate hate I am black Dark skin I celebrate What's within Black intellect Will never dim We are warriors We survive from within Strength like lions Warriors and Tigers Dragon's stand here Watch out world ...................the dark ones are coming Black people stick together no  matter what That's how we progress Red Ebony

I was thinking about the emotional war within. How sometimes we feel one way about our lives and other days we feel completely different. Life can be completely topsy turvy, upside down and inside out. Last week i dragged the remnants of my self esteem home, because the ghosts of my pasts chased me down and reminded me i needed to be smarter about my choices. My head was upside down, and i thought i would recycle myself all over again. You hide pain from the world and it jangles for everyone to see like keys. I hid pain in clear sight pretending like it doesn't exist. The hardest thing in life to admit is that we need help. Sometimes in life we play emotional hide and seek with ourselves, we are a version of ourselves we don't like. I was angry for such a long time about so many things it burned a hole in my heart. For years i was furious about so many things, but anger has always kept me safe. Sometimes anger keeps you sane, anger keeps you going. I used anger to discip