Rain Dance

"we are only people,"
the warrior said to god,
My mouth was a weapon
my heart was a sword
And when i crumbled
and fell from grace;
I couldnt recognize
The eyes on my face
Those eyes like slits
with blinds that drew
and all the pain
My mind it knew
Like a car it breaks
I needed oil
A plant that's barren
Without soil
And all those scattered marbles
Whisper, whisper,
says the owl
says the educator
With a righteous scowl
Says a king
Upon his throne
and all the questions
that thrive and moan
How do i fix myself,
The warrior said to god
Said to angel
With the excalibur sword,
Said to the sergeant
and the Millitia men
Your present is now
Your past was back then

"There is no shame in the mistakes
we make
Sometimes in life
we need a break
To sew the threads
of battered hearts,
and rub the wounds
of clustered scars
The warrior crumbled
upon the ground
He sobbed aloud
and it echoed sound
For pain it carries
Stretched like a bow,
Choice is a mission
That wise men know
The warrior rose
From upon the ground,
standing tall,
his sandaled feet
His tired brow
" I am the horizon, i'll rise again"
In this life there's sun and rain.
Life is all about balance
Sunshine and smiles
and happy faces
and yet there's shadows in darkened
places
Open your eyes
and look beyond your pain
Take off your shoes
and dance for the rain

Red ebony

Black Rhythmn

Loyalty,
Should be the rhythmn of
the black race
We should replace
and eradicate hate
I am black
Dark skin
I celebrate
What's within
Black intellect
Will never dim
We are warriors
We survive from within
Strength like lions
Warriors
and Tigers
Dragon's stand here
Watch out world
...................the dark ones are coming
Black people stick together no  matter what
That's how we progress

Red Ebony

War of arms

I was thinking about the emotional war within. How sometimes we feel one way about our lives and other days we feel completely different. Life can be completely topsy turvy, upside down and inside out. Last week i dragged the remnants of my self esteem home, because the ghosts of my pasts chased me down and reminded me i needed to be smarter about my choices. My head was upside down, and i thought i would recycle myself all over again. You hide pain from the world and it jangles for everyone to see like keys. I hid pain in clear sight pretending like it doesn't exist. The hardest thing in life to admit is that we need help. Sometimes in life we play emotional hide and seek with ourselves, we are a version of ourselves we don't like. I was angry for such a long time about so many things it burned a hole in my heart. For years i was furious about so many things, but anger has always kept me safe. Sometimes anger keeps you sane, anger keeps you going. I used anger to discipline myself, then when the anger ran out i found new things to be angry about. Anger keeps us safe, it protects us from our belief that we can be vulnerable. Most of us smile through pain, we laugh through our fears. We run when were anxious, when were curious, when were scared, when were broken hearted or when were in pain. When i was younger the best way to deal with hurt feelings or a broken heart was to run. Sometimes your hurt about all the little things and you don't even know it.