Self and the shadow (excerpt)

He watched as i took bold steps severing the ties from my former shadow, I was not afraid any more, i would march into glory, the serpent would not rattle my skin, i would canvas this place with joy and the dimples of my delight. For much had changed. I had become a woman now, i was not afraid of him. Augustus eyed me with two lazy brown eyes , he quirked a brow as he leaned over the table in the small cafeteria. I should have been with Mack, or Ezra, yet i was here with suspicious Augustus, who had a way of seeing me right underneath the skin. "He been beating you huh?"
"Yeah,"i confessed. he rubbed a swollen finger over my soft green eye. It was black around the lid, half the girls would kill to be in my shoes, "sometimes," he spoke cooly, "we beat on ourselves also."

Freedom is aflame

You are challenging a self you are yet to discover, and on this Voyage,  challenging a self you are soon to become, open your mind, open your mouth and sing unto the clouds, for you are free , and there is no prison in your soul. A bird sits on a window ledge seducing you out into the open air, the magic of the great outdoor to enchant you away from your slumber. Remove the glass from your feet, you are no icicle dancing on hot coals, melting before the eyes of the world, you are free as a flame, roar and set the world on fire.

A vision like a trumpet

It was a vision that wept within me like a tempest , howled like a wolf, destroyed like a hurricane. In the morning when i slipped into my second skin, my bones were margarine and i was lost within myself. Caught in howling winds that ravaged and scarred, shattered and broke. I denied a separate self, eager to taste the pangs of success, when it bled my way.

Of Loving and living

Come on i encouraged, i was lost in a distant oblivion trying to build myself up torn between old fears and a thirst for a new reality. It can happen to anyone that is caught between old pain and a thirst for a new reality , a new beginning. We find ourselves eager to find our victories so quickly , and by god you will find your victory, in so many strengths. So many of your glories. I have a saying, walk into your glory. It is a saying i have which translates to learn to love yourself, we are consistently growing as a self, evolving as a self, and we become abundant within ourselves. Whatever you accomplish, you succeed by accomplishing it with all the different layers of self, and a deeper understanding of love.

Donate your car Sacramento

 car auctions are ten a penny, yet for someone to outrightly donate their vehicle in Sacramento is a big deal. Whether your in the heart of the city or living on the outskirts, it's an honorable thing to do for your community.Donate your car Sacramento is where as a society we are showing we don't believe in the division of class, we believe in the sanctity of community.

Mesothelioma law firm

1. Cancer the word, it cripples you, you are stunned into.the specifics of your body becoming a strange object. Alien separate and different from you, you look at all its parts studying them with.microscopic intensity. Knowing that a bullet was shot, and your gritting it between your teeth. You analyse your diet, think carefully of what you tell the kids, family, friends, and of course colleagues. Mesothelioma can be called many things, yet it is the point at which you begin to fight, and now there are mesothelioma  lawyers to fight alongside you. Assist you with areas such as securing your home in the meantime, as you may be dealing with medical bills. Being a support network and an adviser to your family, dealing with such issues as life insurance. If you come against any opposition at work, a mesothelioma lawyer will ensure you have a fair case. For example you may need to.work on a caseload,but your boss cleverly decides that because your working from home, he should lower your pay, or experiencing disability discrimination and suddenly begin to acquire less workload, or were the shoe in for a promotion. Lawyers act as legal guardians, they fight to help give you and your family with their firm. There are a million scenarios that appear when we're vulnerable, we just need the support network to assist us.

How to love yourself

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I am beautiful, and I am allowed to be flawed. I am constantly improving, evolving, moving closer towards my better self. You are not perfect. If the world was full of uniform perfect people, it would be a dull world we live in. Celebrate your little quirks, wether its a crooked smile, some gap teeth, a lazy eye. Whatever you have going on, pick the positives, focus on them and continue to build upon them.

If your self conscious of your image, there must be at least one thing you like about yourself. Is there something people are always complimenting you on? Is there something other people celebrate about you? Celebrate those things for yourself. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, make sure every time you get up and you look at your reflection you say something positive about yourself. 'I am beautiful, I am intelligent, I am ambitious, I am wise.'

Take pride in your appearance and whichever project you start to work on, give it your all, give it your best shot. Wether it's baking cakes, doing photography, fashion, design, go for it.

Invest your time in supportive people who will direct and guide. Be a positive influence not a jealous influence. Invest in things that will make you happy.

Right feeling, wrong guy: How to know if your dating the right guy

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Many of us have been here, your so in love with a guys potential, you ignore the simple fact that it may not work. When a relationship doesn't work it frustrates us beyond belief. Sometimes we hang on for dear life hoping that we can fix them and in turn we will fix ourselves. Someone once told me you learn a lot of life lessons from the relationships you have and the ones you find yourselves in. You learn your trigger points, you learn what turns you on, what turns you off, what excites you, what makes you absolutely livid and absolutely crazy. If you find you are in a relationship that is less joy and adventure, more misery,abuse,over analysis or frustration.it's time to move on. Just because in your ideal world you guys were not the perfect fit, doesn't mean the right person isnt out there hoping you'll give them a chance. What is the right person? I've learnt that the right person is someone who respects not just your strengths but does not glorify themselves during your weak points. You learn a lot about people's character when you make a mistake. What does your loving caring partner do when you fall, do they advise and support you? Or do they use it as an opportunity to burst into a monologue about how great they are, and how they would have never made that same mistake. Trust your instinct. Are you around someone who specialises in making you feel small, or are you around someone who is happy to watch you excel and grow. How would they feel if the next day you became extremely successful at what you do? Highly desired? Popular? Ask yourself the right questions, and then if you are in the wrong situations be ready to move on. There's a question that is always a one size fits all question.....am i happy? What are the factors?

Strength in numbers:Friends

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The loner mythology. Boy doesn't it look good in movies. The mysterious stranger, that's independant and is a law unto themselves, creates their own rules, and lives life according to their own moral code. In Hollywood films, their usually tall,dark, and sexy, in horror movies, their creepy, and have everybody in the neighbourhood walking on tiptoe. Nothing is ever chalkboard black and white, human beings are social creatures. It's nice to have someone to share your ideas with, your vision with, hopes, dreams, laughter, triumphs, failures. Reach out to someone positive today, connect with someone and share those qualities you take so much pride in. When we engage with others, the right type of others, we grow. Maybe you've been hurt, betrayed, let down, disappointed, degraded, bullied, or humiliated, there are millions of people out there in the world.Infact there are billions, trillions, and zillions, if you don't extend yourself. If you dont smile, and reach out with a humble heart, you will never know. Its easy to run. We get scared. Terrified of experiencing the same pain all over again so we play hide and seek with ourselves, as much as fear is your worst enemy, it can be full of such clever guise it can trick you into believing it's your best friend. That means you can be scared and have no idea your scared. "Your just being safe," you tell yourself, this isn't about fear, it's about protection. Yet those who dont seek to find never discover the answers their looking for.
Strength isn't about isolation. If it was all those multi million dollar corporations you hear about would all be run just by one person. They'd have no employees, and they may not even have acquired their full networth. All the different strands provide the various information. Support is about building a strong framework, a strong network around yourself. Sources you can tap into, resources that can assist you when your too vulnerable to help yourself. We need to learn from those around us and outside of ourselves. We need to know our strengths and improve upon our weaknesses.

It's cool to have those private moments to ourselves and not let everybody elses stuff filter in and drive us insane. Yet if you've made yourself chlaustrophobic because of fear and your a naturally social or outgoing person, start to reach out little by little.

Happiness

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Happiness is not just about the image on the post card, or something you see on tv. It's gratitude, and the systematic appreciation of what you have around you. Giving love, thanks, sharing the peace you can find within and blessing those around you. It's the words you say in your self conscious, and what you utter into the universe.

People often say things like be grateful for small mercies. Indeed. Gratitude is the key to releasing many blessings in the universe. Celebrate all the little things you've taken for granted. The friends you joke with, the family that support you, if you work, the job you may be conflicted with but are glad you have, the vacations you've taken or are destined to take. The success you have accomplished, or are destined to achieve and accomplish. Find something awesome to smile or laugh about and grin till all you are is teeth, and booming energy.

Polvolting passed self pity

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Wow emotional relapse or what? We have moments where our self pity gets the better of us. Pity got the better of me yesterday, my eyes sweated out onions, and my smile needed a treasure hunt. Someone great once told me, failure is not something that happens instantaneously. It is a series of opportunistic regrets. People pleasing is such a destructive trait. We are failures when we give up on ourselves, allow others to tell us exactly who we are negatively or convince us were not good enough.

Other people will try and make you feel small because they feel small about their lives and themselves. Other people will make you question who you are and all the beliefs you hold dear to yourself. You may begin to compare and contrast. That is not your life. It is not your journey. You were not born to be like them you were born to be exactly who you are. To learn, to grow, and to evolve. Your journey is not about them. Ofcourse their opinions matter, without input, we lack the output to shape and evolve. Feedback is required. Yet there's positive feedback and there's negative feedback. Negative people will tell you everything your doing wrong and smugly sit on a throne of superiority, positive people will tell you everything your doing right, everything your doing wrong, yet always how they believe you can do it better. They care about you. They care about your improvements, growth, and successes. When we emotionally relapse it is important to associate ourselves with people who have real self esteem and are not motivated by their own selfish personal agenda's. The right people will be drawn to you like a magnet, the same way the wrong people will be drawn to you, like a magnet. Choose people who like to build and support those around them rather than tear them down.You fail when you quit. You fail, when you give up.

Defining the distinct:What is love?

What's love? Every month due to my epileptic episodes tied to my period, family members take time to support me. They help me with breathing, cancel their shifts, inform friends that their busy and may not be able to make adventures they planned, because they want to keep an eye on me, and make sure I'm alright.

They share what they have, knowledge, experience,finance, growth. Their education becomes part of my education. People who love you want to see you grow, they want to see you happy, and they tell you what you don't want to hear but need to know.  Love is the ability to take one for the team. To guide, support, listen, care,make a sacrifice. One word encompasses all these things and so much more. Then there's loving yourself, that's work, but worth it in the end you get to face the world and say I accept all my flaws.
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