Warrior within

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There are warriors in us all;
Lions fight Goliaths
ten foot tall
Though were scared and chomp
at bits
We climb barriers and
out of it
Pure vision lies
with Strength within
A soldier denies
to let light dim
Fight with passion
fight for life
we gasp for Oxygen
to survive
When you fail
Fight to thrive
This is you
upon the edge
Standing near
a jagged ledge
And all those questions
That you ask
Hidden in
Your faded mask
Wipe those tears
beyond glass eyes
For pain is buried
Drilled in deep
It lulls you
when you fall
asleep
Life as punisher
Life as friend
Riddles at the start
and end
Your
precipice
Your recipe
for sccess within
let glowing lights shine
and beam
Detonate explosions of fear
Hold your head up
for your still here
For your still
The soldier rings
the shrill alarm,
We stand at ease,
and remain calm
snap our fngers
Lick dry lips
Tilt our heads
Prepare for  abyss
it's imagination
station
Be addicted
to your dreams
don't et them fester
let them steam
Heat them up,
Cook and boil
Nails are dirty
Let hands toil t
let the scent travel upon the air
smile at those fuckers
 your already there.


Red ebony salutes you

War of arms

I was thinking about the emotional war within. How sometimes we feel one way about our lives and other days we feel completely different. Life can be completely topsy turvy, upside down and inside out. Last week i dragged the remnants of my self esteem home, because the ghosts of my pasts chased me down and reminded me i needed to be smarter about my choices. My head was upside down, and i thought i would recycle myself all over again. You hide pain from the world and it jangles for everyone to see like keys. I hid pain in clear sight pretending like it doesn't exist. The hardest thing in life to admit is that we need help. Sometimes in life we play emotional hide and seek with ourselves, we are a version of ourselves we don't like. I was angry for such a long time about so many things it burned a hole in my heart. For years i was furious about so many things, but anger has always kept me safe. Sometimes anger keeps you sane, anger keeps you going. I used anger to discipline myself, then when the anger ran out i found new things to be angry about. Anger keeps us safe, it protects us from our belief that we can be vulnerable. Most of us smile through pain, we laugh through our fears. We run when were anxious, when were curious, when were scared, when were broken hearted or when were in pain. When i was younger the best way to deal with hurt feelings or a broken heart was to run. Sometimes your hurt about all the little things and you don't even know it.

Healing from hate

Bullying is like a virus. Those who have been bullied become the bully. Despite someone telling a lot of stories and spreading a lot of poison and gossip at one point i actually even became the bully by default. I was so infuriated. I thought it was so unfair. Then i realised, What am i fighting for. What on Earth am i fighting this person for? I was happy before i allowed myself to be embroiled in their miserable agenda. I could tell that they were an unhappy, discontent person, and they seemed to resent everybody else their own happiness. They seemed to be really cruel and almost take pleasure in seeing others miserable because they were, but the strength comes in your ability to deal with people as nasty as this.Keep your head up. The goal is to make you feel small , Remind yourself your a giant in your own mind. Speak positive things in your mind, smile, bless yourself, with a spirit of kind words and a warm heart. Counter negativity with positive words and positive experiences.

Building yourself to bonus: How to stay positive when others tear you down

It's easy to start tearing yourself down because others do. We make the mistake of thinking we have to agree with everyone. If someone tries to tear you down, ridicule you, make you look small so they can look and feel important. Remember they have an agenda, and that agenda wont get them very far. Whatever you do, dont get caught up in their mess, don't find yourself drowning in their issues, because you're better than them, and that's why they tried to pull you down in the first place. Laugh as loudly as you possibly can, be as happy as you are, and as loving as possible over and over and over again. Let their misery rot them and not you. Sometimes we even try to reach out to those who have belittled us or made us feel small, because in our hearts, we want to show that we are better people. Focus on your life, and on your journey. Karma is a very busy bee, it catches up to even those that think they are above it. Fight for your happiness, and live your life. You only get one.Don't let someone negative live in your head rent free,keep your head up, embrace the positive things in the universe, give love, recieve love, and choose wisely. You are worthy of respect.
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Dating as a minefield: Are you about to emotionally combust

Dating can feel like a minefield. Honestly there are thousands, no millions of does he like me, does she like me? Are these signs they find me attractive questions that bombard the internet daily. I have discovered with much trial and error, if someone is attracted to you, they could be the shyest man on Earth...they want you to know somehow. Those lingering stares are great, people who fancy you always want to be near you, even if there's just a hint of a possibility they might bump into you....They want to see that hair do, new outfit, say hi, or have a brief encounter that could be slightly prolonged. Some go as far as buying you gifts, or popping up everywhere you are, asking questions about you, inviting you to places, or the more confident of the bunch simply ask you for your telephone number, and guarantee you'll have the time of your life.

I've learned with much agony not every man or woman that gives you attention are the right partner for you. Beneath a hollywood smile could lurk hell on Earth, so choose carefully. The worst mistake is being so desperate not to be alone you fling yourself at the first guy/chick you see. Know which qualities you want, set your boundaries and decide what doesn't appeal to you. People forget the reasons they want to date, is because they want to be happy. Enjoy life, share themselves with someone. Dating and a relationship should not feel like a chore. We should at least experience some of the ideals we yearn for. It's a journey and an adventure. As much as you learn about your partner you begin to learn more about yourself. If you are seeing someone and it feels like a minefield watch out, you didn't start dating to emotionally combust.

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Belief

Believe beyond your circumstances. You have to it's called survival. It's the only way you can exist with a positive mindset. If you believe in failure, you will fail. If you believe in success, you will have that peaceful smile on your face whilst you climb that ladder a rung at a time. When the explosions happen, or even some dramatic flying saucer blocks your path, your mind is mapped for an exit. You have a goal to reach and nothing is gonna stand in the way of you getting there.
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Navigating to need: How to get things done!

Make what you want what you need, so there are no room for excuses. There's nothing more frustrating than being stuck on planet idea, with no consecutive action towards it. You find yourself amongst a lifetime of great ideas and bad strategy. The worst strategy of all being the favourite, curl up in front of the tv, talk to your friends about how great-no amazing your idea is, and hoping people pat you on the back for how intelligent you are. People will get tired of giving you high fives with absolutely no action and no result. Laziness is the poor man's best friend. Hopefully we are trying to proove to ourselves, not only are we not lazy but were also not afraid of a challenge. Here are the top key needs that are necessary before you face this.

1) First of all smile, it's not torture. You are setting up a series of events that are changing your lifestyle and changing the way you see yourself.

2)Remind yourself why this is fun! Fun! Fun!

3) List all the reasons why it is a necessity you get this goal accomplished.

4) Map out a plan of action. Strategy,strategy,strategy
What is your strategy? What are steps Ato Z? Who are you gonna call?...hopefully not ghostbusters

5) Start researching, and produce a portfolio of people who have done what you want to accomplish. What are their backstories? How many times did they fail? Who did they connect with to try and accomplish this goal?

6) If you could accomplish your goal by next week? Next month even? How would you feel? Visualise yourself, hold unto that feeling and let it push you forward

7) As much as fear is a great deterrent it's also a great motivator. What are the downsides of you not taking action and accomplishing this goal?

Daredevil dating: why it's alright you took that risk

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If you've been kicking yourself for the wrong guy, it's time to stop. So you took a risk on a looser, gave the jerkoff ex boyfriend a chance, went after a guy who turned out to be completely gutless. Guess what? It's a rite of passage. You are just a number amongst the millions of gorgeous women out there, whose dreams of prince charming, led them to the scenario from hell. Lauren hill once sang the road to hell, is paved with good intentions; Boy did you feel that, crying alone in the dark, or whining about it to a friend who is soon to avoid your calls. Sometimes in life, you have to experience what we don't want to realise exactly what we want. Often times the media are the ones telling us what we want, those polished movies, that person that walks in from out of the rain and says, 'you complete me.' We forget all the basic things like okay he says I complete him, but around friends and neighbours he makes you feel humiliated, ridiculed. Or he cooked you dinner those few times, yet for the rest of the time he's always comparing you to the ex, who he'd informed you initially was crazy, selfish, and thought she was god. You went after someone because you thought you wanted them,could handle their baggage, now you know better. There's an old saying that says now you know better, you'll do better. It's alright to make those mistakes from time to time, we are reminded of our boundaries. What were willing to tolerate, what our highest ambitions are, and how we define self respect.

Why he cant take his eyes off you but wont ask you out?

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How frustrating. The guy of your dreams keeps looking at you, and it's not the yikes you disgust me kind of look. Its those lingering stares you see in the movies, you know, the ones that make you freeze midway into your popcorn. Damn, you want that moment, the hypnotised stare, the nervous, "i er..i like you a lot, will you..." Yet your cap'n Romeo stud slash prince charming is turning this into a marathon. Simply put, you wont actually know until he tells you, or he gets comfortable enough to tell someone your close to. Maybe you make him nervous. I remember liking someone that made me so nervous i used to cross the street everytime i saw him.

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Are you sensing this dreamboat is trying to get close? Is he always licking his lips, do people keep telling you they saw him watching your bum,  asking questions about you, likes and dis likes, finding ways to be of assistance,  warming up to it. He just needs to be a bit more comfortable in his skin, so he can be the alpha male he worships on tv. Get the lay of the land, and then go for what he wants. If your picking up signs of shyness, smile more often when you see him, don't turn yourself into a macleans toothpaste advert, just a subtle smile will do the trick for now. Maybe even a polite compliment here and there, Then simply go back to all the amazing topics you were discussing with the person in front of you.

The smile will invite him in. If he starts happening to be where you are, doesn't disappear like someone running from debt collectors everytime he sees you, narrowly missing the bus right in front of him, sounds like a plus to me, my love. If you keep getting mixed signals from him which most shy guys tend to give because of their terror of the opposite sex, step back a bit. All men like a challenge and love to chase. Sometimes guys wont follow up for other key reasons, he's seeing someone already , he's not ready to date, he has other options, he's dealing with a broken heart,is insecure and doesnt feel he has much to bring to the table. In the meantime whilst he's working those gorgeous issues out in his muddled head, youre still foot loose and fancy free. YOUR AVAILABLE! So feel free to talk to, and let the other guys who do have the courage to step up, and introduce themselves. They could be great to talk to, and have a laugh with. So long as you dont exhibit yourself as some sort of playboy pornstar, there's nothing wrong with you socialising.It shows your likeable, and everyone likes desired things.