The pain of being Hopelessly in love

Love letters can be painful;
each pen stroke un kind
I step back
wanting time to rewind
In love with shadows;
Tears in the dark;
Loosing your spirit;
Loosing your spark
And here i sit
Pain at my side
These emotions
You try and hide
Pain like acid;
Fills your veins
Turn your thoughts
and your brain to mud
Heartbroken
Scribbling stupid
words after dark
I was in love
I am in love
with a guy
Who hates everything about me.....
Life is funny
 love letters
with a painful pen;
......and then
........i remember the pain of being hopelessly in love

Healing and history

image by Ruoto


Healing. Something that cannot be done in a day, in a week, in a month. Whatever trauma you have been through in your life, as you experience the healing process. As you ask yourself the question that go round and round in your brain like a tumble dryer, what did you learn? What are you learning ? The pain and the anger that comes with trauma, can be so intense, we find ourselves trapped in the dark. If your looking in the dark you need a flashlight or a candle. What brought you hope before, what restored your faith in people and the human race. Wether it's scribbling in your journal, getting counselling, seeking help and asking for assistance, re connecting with the church or contacting your best friend and joining a group. Just remember in all those things there is another that needs to be added to the equation. Time. Healing takes time. If your someone that specialises in beating yourself up, because you just haven't 'gotten over it yet'. Show yourself some mercy. You've probably been through enough.