Step at a time: Your growth

One step at a time. Have you ever started something that feels so overwhelming you simply step back and awe at it? Tomorrow you'll do it, next week, you'll do it, friday you'll do it. There are lessons to be learned in life. I have a habbit of just throwing myself into things, and expecting results instantly. Recently i experienced different phases of sadness.The type that just creeps in when there's gap in the mind, and i put on quite a bit of weight. I went into it with the usual overzealous exercise regiments, poor dieting habbits, and bullying the mirror into convincing myself i was my perfect shape again. This time all those effective trends were not working, i thought what the hell am i doing wrong? Then my brother said it so simply, "You're so impatient...Geeeze!" There it was in a nutshell, it wasn't so much that my new fitness regiment, with healthy diet wasn't working, i wasn't giving it the chance to work. I was obsessing too much. Progress is a journey that takes time. Give yourself the chance to grow, we are not perfect people. Were like children in lifes womb, developing.If your kicking yourself, comparing yourself, disecting your every move, you will not accomplish your ultimate goal.....to be happy.

Spotting the jerk

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I'd braved it, stepped out of my comfort zone, swallowed hard, taken a risk and there it was in black and white. The snickers, the laughter, the constant commentary and humiliation. It sucked. Rejection sucks doesnt it.Only id been rejected by a guy i didn't actually like. Loneliness had gotten the better of me and there i was going after a guy who i thought could at least be a cool friend. He seemed like a nice guy. For a while after you get that kick in the gut, i will guarantee you'll feel like a total looser. Then sanity hits you. Reaching out to a guy i thought i might like, despite the fear, anxiety, didn't make me a looser. His behaviour, revealed to me what i didn't see in those momentary glimpses. You know, when you like someone and you begin to build an identity for them.This guy wasn't just an arsehole, he was weak, and a follower.

We deserve the right people in our lives. Wether it's a friend, or a lover, or a family member. Someone's actions will always tell you who they are, yet it's up to you and wether your willing to see. We set the standard for how we will allow ourselves to be treated. If the bar is low, build up that self esteem, and raise it a little higher