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Ola Lola's Garden Bar: Giving back to the universe

It takes a lot of strength to support someone, or be happy for them when emotionally your feeling like shit. Today i was a testament to myself, and was proud that i could personally erase a negative action with a positive one. Someone i know has achieved something very positive that she deserves. She went through the depression, struggling to find work and now she's going from strength to strength, but i inturn will also go from strength to strength i have 100% faith and belief in that. Things have been quite colourful and quite flamboyant for me recently, but my strength and courage continues to resurrect itself day by day. I could have been nasty, vindictive, viciously jealous this time, but i wasn't. I could have been resentful, but i wasn't. Bullies are often going through awful times themselves. The thing about pain, is that it makes us act out. A lot of the time people are in pain but they don't even know it. It's a form of emotional numbness, we believe so lo

I'm wondering if it's a chick thing, you have different, beautiful, warm, kind hearted men lined up like library books and you end up falling for a guy you completely hate? I've decided romance, or the ideals of it seem to dive out of the window with age. I would love to say it's a self esteem thing, as that sounds brilliant on paper, but is it. Or are some women chronically attached to not bad boys...but guys that are bad for them. I personally have never been attracted to a physically abusive guy, i've come across a few emotionally abusive, or unavailable guys and i dodge them like a bullet in a superhero flick. So what the hell makes some women consumed by guys who in a maths equation would never add up? Although i think it happens with men too, the more emotionally unavailable a woman becomes, the more they want her. Baffling, truly baffling.